I understand that some of my actions are wrong but I can't avoid them. Sometimes I feel I'm living like an spectator of my own life. Recently I saw the movie "He's Just Not That Into You" (2009) and I see one of my behaviours: deeds of anxiety.
Many times I know what it's going to happen even what I'm going to do, and I know it's wrong but I do it. I suffer this attitude in my whole life but I can't resist it in my relationships. People speaks about hysteria, anxiety, but I think it's a question of do the right in the right moment (kairos). I understand it and I think Ovid was right when he said we look for who doesn't love us and run away from who love us.
Walter Scott said "For success, attitude is equally as important as ability." I think attitude is related with omission (to know when don't do something). My weakest point is attitude. For instance, now I can't sleep maybe because I can't stop thinking so now I wrote this post. I need ataraxia!!!
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